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Name: Erin
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Francisco
Birthday: 12/3/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Incubus (above and beyond all the others, of course!), cars, Brandon Boyd, driving, Johnny Depp, concerts, chocolate, sleeping, ballet, dance, sunny weather, socks, macs, parties, coffee (I miss my Intermezzo!), icecream, indie-films, things that get you thinking, poetry & lyrics...
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AIM:  Mserincubus
Member Since:
1/3/2004
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| My flight home was miserable. I wake to rainy weather with a pain in my neck and a sore, scratchy throat. Ew. Of course there were a million little kids on our packed flight which boarded and took off later than scheduled. I kinda slept most of the flight, but my window was unusually hot...I couldn't lean my head against it (with the shade down) because it would end up burning my scalp. Weird, right? Maybe I should have said something to someone about it...not like they'd do anything about it. Delta likes making your flight miserable. Oh and we didn't get an in-flight movie. wtf? I wanted to watch ...well, now that I'm trying to think of what it was going to be, I can't remember.
But anyway, back in atlanta my mom and I vent about how annoying the holiday season is. I think that's cause we both work in retail, but no matter where we worked, I think we'd feel the same. The hustle and bustle and money flying everywhere and commercials with Nutcracker tunes and shopping bags everywhere and impatience....ugh. Get me outta there.
I was just excited to be back home to see friends and relax. Weird how uncomfortable I was when I had nothing to do last night. I've been so busy that it's just awkward being so free.
This morning my throat is okay but the cough and mucous is showing itself, and my neck is hurting a bit again. I had a Tranny voice last night. I named it Lucky only because of how unlucky my first day with it was...my travel day. Funny how my friends back here at home play the tranny voice name game, too.
Ryan gets in today--there's a story behind why he didn't get in last night, and his status says he's fucked, so I'm a bit concerned.
Got pulled over last night for driving about 15 over on Lower Roswell just past Terrill Mill Rd. It was about 3am. I had a couple beers around midnight and had been sipping on a Hot Tottie at Josh and Berta's in Decatur. I was fine...I just happened to be speeding a bit. I blame it on the car. My car that my dad got me and felt I deserved. It's a bright red TT Roadster. Bright red? Really? Talk about a flag for cops. The officer breathalized me, and I blew a .023 which meant I was fine. I was a bit nervous, but nothing happened. I drove away with no ticket. Ramsey was in the car with me. I'm sure she was a little freaked out. Fucking po. Fucking red bullet of a car. I wanna get it traded in.....
Okay gotta go shower to go shop. Yay malls at christmas time. | | |
| I've been SO BUSY. I haven't had a day off since...about Nov 5th. That's over a month now, right?
I love mulled wine. I love warm holiday food. I love Project Runway. I love Maurya's, but I hate how I have to pay the full $9 for taking just the first half hour of it. I could have taken the two hour ballet class opted to me for free for making postcards and the program for the LBSET show, but that was at 9am. Maurya's class was at 11:30am. Duh, I slept in. So basically I paid to sleep longer. And get less of a class. I knew I'd be going for five hours, though. And it wasn't that bad of a day today.
The dancers of Kunst-Stoff are feeling like a solid group nowadays. It helps for sure with the whole process.
Hiedi's bangs on tonight's episode are too long and uneven. And Nina's more orange than Michael. I love Christian. And Kevin....and that's my PR rant.
Something happened involving the cops and pepper spray on 7th St today. Yannis comes busting into the studio during Tomi's rehearsal asking loudly "Are you okay??" We thought he was on some ego trip for a second then we found out pepper spray had made its way up to the dance center affecting people and they had to evacuate part of the building. Not our studio, though. We were clean.
I'm making a playlist for Rebecca's party on Saturday. I kinda don't have that much, but I'll make it work.
I couldn't get to sleep last night. I did eventually, though. Thoughts are brewing. I can't help that.
Okay, time to clean my kitchen mess. | | |
| I advised my good pal last night while out to eat for my birthday that life is still worth living even without someone to share it with romantically. Life is considerably short in the sense that the opportunities you have and the situations you have to choose from may only come once. You may find yourself down and lonely...things may not be ideal, but life has a weird way of coming around when you least expect it.
I've been allowing myself to wallow in the past and in what used to be happiness for me. Of course it's been hard not to when you dream about it nearly every night and wake with heavy thoughts reminding you of what was... But I need to bring myself back to reality and find what is happiness for me now. I need to reach out to friends more and build experiences in the form of reinvention. Life is waving at me across the street, and I need to realize that I'm the one that's supposed to cross and meet it on the other side.
I need to smoke a bowl.
I need a day off so I don't have to worry about the few hours I have until I have to be somewhere doing something obligatory.
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| i know. i'm sorry i keep updating. sticking to one entry a day doesn't work anymore...
i'm craving a rush of emotions. right now. | | |
| i'm so thankful for the incubus dvd i finally got in the mail yesterday. i've been waiting for over a month now for it's arrival. and it got me wanting some hot energy in my life. the energy of them in their shows is incredibly motivating and so raw it makes you feel like you have so much potential and so much life to live.
i'm looking so forward to another year in my life. my 21st is coming...the big one. it will be rich and meaningful. i wish to be invested to my time with good reason and loving intention. i will push myself to my fullest capabilities and make something of myself with every breath.
i hope to enrich my mind with new materials and knowledge. i hope to expand my horizons. i hope to make new and lasting connections.
i hope to make more of a home here.
i will be happy and healthy.
...i will also most likely read this in a month or so and be reminded of this, haha. i'm pretty good at accomplishing goals, though, right?
cheers. | | |
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